You Were the Music in Me

I miss my baritone, even though it technically wan't mine, I miss it. I miss it more than anything. I miss playing it, I miss holding it, I miss the beautiful, deep, rich sounds it made. I miss how easily the black dots on the page just made sense when I looked passed the keys and the bell. I miss sitting next to Joy and the rest of low brass making beautiful music. I just miss music. At the beginning of the semester I enrolled for the NAU collegiate band and never was able to get a hold of anyone to rent an instrument or anything, so what did I do? I dropped it. I mean, I have next semester to do marching band which I plan on doing that's for sure. I just love music too much to just ignore it. Music meant something to me, and it still does, but music was just a part of me. Music is a puzzle piece to me, and I know exactly where it needs to go.

I have never ever in my entire life been on any kind of probation...ever. And all of a sudden I get this email saying "You have been suspended to academic probation". What the heck does that even mean?! Why would they tell me now that the last semester is over? Do they just want to like freak me out or something. I realize that I did fail PreCalc and I am really not proud of that. Part of it is my fault, but I could NOT understand the professor for the life of me! And so yeah, it lowered my GPA a little lower (or a lot lower) than I'm used to. That happened 2 months ago, and they tell me now that I'm on some sort of probation. They say I could lighten my class load. Well that won't happen because I'm not overloaded. So apparently I'm just supposed to do better this semester? Hello! I new that since I got my grades in December. Golly. So then my mother calls...great. I get it she's concerned. But stop drilling it into me. I get it. I failed. "Well maybe you should change your major. You don't need to teach Biology do you?" GAH!

I really should be taking a shower. And for some wierd reason I am chatting with Weston on Facebook. I don't know why but I figured I should just be friendly and say hello considering I haven't communicated with him since early January. And honeslty it hasn't bothered me at all. And I'm proud of that.

Random Facts That I Feel Like Sharing...
- I really want to fall in love.
- I can't wait to see "Dear John" this Friday.
- I bought a skirt today at Target that was only $4.24...I had to...
- I wish I got RayBans for Christmas so that I wouldn't have to buy them myself with the money I do not have.
- I'm really excited to take Christina's prom pictures. Plus she's getting this amazingly beautiful dress that's going to be a dream to photograph.
- Speaking of prom dresses, I really wish I had a different one.
- I hate the fact that I can't understand a word that my English teacher says...since she's Chinese...
- "I've got the horse right here, his name is Paul Revere..."
- I really really really really dislike all the snow.
- The Colts are going to beat the Saints in SuperBowl XLIV!
- I really want to buy more Taylor Swift songs from iTunes.
- According to the groundhog there's supposed to be 6 more weeks of winter. But what the heck does a dumb groundhog know about the weather?!
- I hate when my father asks me about "HAPA". No I didn't go. Sorry.
- There's a really cute boy in my English class. Actually, there's quite a few :)
- Today was really uneventful except that Kelsey and I made some awesome vids on her Flip.
- I'm still a little annoyed that I didn't get professional Senior pictures.

- I still really want to make those shirts that Joy and I came up with.

- I'm going to take a shower...boo community bathrooms.